You've finally found it.
It's right there, just a step ahead.
And when you take that step thinking that you did it, everything falls down and you suddenly wake up.
Your heart still pounding hard in your chest you cant stop an aching sense of helpness run down your spine.
you know that feeling, right?

But that was just a dream.

And then you laugh. Laugh out loud at yourself and your naiveness, you laugh realising that the child you once were is still alive, and dreaming.
You remember how it felt and wonder why the hell you let dreams fade away.
Making a promise, you start living again.

why? because I chose to, I chose to believe

Surviving

It may not be as tough as I thougth at first

Summer ended today while school started.
The presentation was at 10:30 so I told my dad to wake me up at the time he went to work.
He actually called me but I didn't wake up, neither did I when the alarm clock rang at nine.
Luckly, at 10:11 I opened my eyes and jumped out of bed.
Apart from this, there was no problem as I finally made it on time.
So it wasn't a bad start at last.

It's all about how are we gonna be remembered

I had forgotten how much effort you need to start building dreams up.
The time for dreaming ends and it comes the time for working hard.
But dont give up, when the time for dreams comes again the effort will have been worth it.

You realize your dreams are just waiting for you to throw your fears away make the move.

There are lots of ways for doing it, this is just one of them.

Close your eyes
Relax, you're going to start a journey,
a journey back to the origins, your origins
ok
think of when you where born,
seems a like a long time ago doesn't it?
well, I don't think anyone remembers the day he was born but,
what's the first thing you can remember?
Give it a try, think, you got it?
how old were you back then? two years old? three? one?
This is gonna be your start point
Once you get it you can begin
Now the only thing have to do is to start remembering
Memories since you were one till now
Take your time, there's no need to rush through it
I like going carefully through each one
You might remember things, details, that had been forgotten
and every time you do it you'll find it difficult not to feel a certain happiness

This is something I do when I have a lot of useless time ahead, like in a bus trip of 2 or 3 hours and feel in the mood. It makes me relax and I really enjoy it.
Hope you find doing it interesting at least

There are times where I can't think of anything to write about. Words will linger just out of my reach and nothing I'll come up with will make any sense.
But I know better than to worry, this is the way things are, you have to wait till it comes again. It may be a day, a week or even a year. It doesn't matter.
I learned long ago that without patience you get nothing.

Today it was the first day it rained since I got back, but it didnt rain long.
I like it when it rains for while.
I like feeling the constant rumble of waterdrops as they fall on the window.

What should be done with dreams when the time for dreaming has not yet come?
I keep them carefully deep inside in a place where they lay, latent, waiting for their time to come...

Never underestimate the power of the little things...

It's disturbing noticing that, once back in town, those days that seemed to last an eternity are over. Now, days pass with incredible quickness, before you realize it a week may well have gone by.
This is because a myriad of activities keep our minds busy, there are no more free afternoons for enjoying ourselves, no more entire days for being with our friends and there's nothing remarkable to measure the flow of time. Instead, time has come for us to do our share.
Maybe there's nothing to do about it but wait for the next break.
Or maybe not,
Maybe it's time to demonstrate that we can overrun tedium, that we can enjoy life despite everyday routine, that we still know how to feel the moment.

Something weird happened today.
I was coming back home in the morning when leaves started falling. It didn't call my attention at first, but then I realized there were no trees on the street I was walking by.
Surprised, I looked up and noticed that the leaves where falling from the sky, from over the buildings and the clouds.
I wonder where can they possibly come from, maybe it's just Fall that comes early this year.

No way to change the past
No way to know the future
But in between I build my dreams on clouds of sugar

Today is over
Tomorrow is not yet
There, in this eternity, I can rest, I feel at home